I’ve spent the evening looking at study abroad opportunities
I just can’t seem to let it go. I missed my school’s deadline for summer, of course, due to my inability to make a decision. I just can’t commit to anything without being sure I’ve thoroughly weighed every other possible option, and that couldn’t have been done by their deadline. My roommate often faces the same plight, and finally discovered the term for what we do: analysis paralysis. That name pretty much nails it, right?
Things are falling together ever so slightly more than they were over break. Just had to give it time. If I’m going to Honduras this summer, it’ll be in the first week of August. That’s my only opportunity so if I can make that happen, I will. I’d really like to do this Cádiz program in Spain, though. It’s not through any school in particular; it’s just a sort of general international studies program for American college students in general. It seems legitimate and they have a huge variety of programs to choose from. I wish money could be no object for travel, if nothing else. There are so many places I want to see! Ideally I’d go to both Cádiz and Honduras, but that’s probably overzealous. I’d also want to go to graduation again in Honduras in November (which even all by itself would be very questionable) in which case an additional Honduras trip and a Spain trip would be far too much.
Who knows what’ll end up happening. I at least get some pleasure out of planning these things, even if they end up all hypothetical. Spanish-speaking places just make me so….giddy. There is something captivating for me about that language. I get chills when I listen to my Spanish music in the car. My ultimate goal is to get to native-speaker level. Even though I can now understand fast conversations between two native speakers pretty easily, I can’t respond with an equal level of mastery when the conversation is directed at me. I want to reach the point where I only have to ask the speaker to repeat what they said because I couldn’t hear them, not because I couldn’t understand something. And I want to speak without having to stop and search for a word or figure out how to phrase a thought. I want to be able to turn off my English filter at will.
I wish travel were free and that Central America were safe.
